i wished on 11.11 tonight
not for me.
for my friends
because i can handle breaking down
because i can handle hurt
but i dont want them to have to
i dont want to ever see them that hurt
they deserve so much more then these stupid boys are giving them
they deserve anything but the hurt they get
they deserve the world.
they deserve what i have
screw me
give them the world
tonight i pray for them
"im okay"
"i dont believe you"

i just realised how much i rely on my belief in god subconsciously.