the birds and the bees got it so wrong

im so fucking scared.
how do you tells someone you here, when your as scared and lost as them?
how do i deal wiht sitting here knowing someone you love isnt okay.
i dont know if i have the strength to be the go to person anymore
its a role i used to know well
i prentend the wetness on my cheek is anything but tears
i pass the goosebumps off as the cold when they are really the fear and pain and hurt
the stomache pain is back. teh one i used tog et when i didnt want to be at school becasue of my best friends
i can get past this



i hope

words to cover the temptation
if i mark the skin with ink, i wont be tempted to mark it with blood.
i know its ironic that one of my deepest fears is blood
but i need to stop myself drawing my own
how fucked up am i when my own fears are buried behind the need to really feel
"the only way to mke it with hearts and wrists in tact is to realise 2 out of 3 aitn bad"
p.wentz knows his shit
i dont care if hes a fuck up and an ass
hes my fucking idol, because he screams "im not okay" in every line
but he doesnt let it stop him
he lives his life
he does hide who he is
and for that hes my fucked up hero

where are you real world when i need you?
i feel so useless for the very thought, but 3 years isnt much in a few years time. but till then its completely wrong.
fuck you world.

it scares me that she gets hurt by him, it scares me that i cant do anything to stop it. it worries me that he might hurt other people.
i hate that im so close to her physically, but cant protect her form the world

im scared about the future
im scared about how unsure i suddenly am
im scared that im fighting with myself so much lately.

im the girl thats reaches from the stars but only ctaches clouds
im the girl that dreams of her name in lights but instead sits stuck at traffic lights
im the girl whos intentions get blurred when she says something that she interprets so differently to the rest of the world

im the girl that never gives up on her dreams, but gives up on her life.