i keep things light and fun
i joke and say cheesy lines
i dont know how to say what i think
ive learnt so long to bite my tounge
i learnt long ago that saying what i want will hurt me
i learnt long ago no one really wanted to listen
no one really gave a dam
it was always about someone else
it was always about them
i was only ever there to be used
people have changed
i have moved on
still im stuck with the stigma this system created
i dont know how to say anything
it takes me ten minutes to say what i want
even then i water it down.
i dont know how to.
i dont know how to fix me anymore

fuck
the little confident kid is more socially awkward than anyone could imagine