Tuesday, 29 January 2008

if a flower grows then dies alone in a forrest, would its beauty still exist?

i shouldnt be thinking this way
since when can i not stop thinking abotut his
i dont know which will kill me quicker,
trying to find ways to hurt my self in non suss ways around the house
or being sure not to eat too much too soon
or at all

if one more person if i like anyone i will do something violent
its bad enough valentines is coming up and i feel more alone then ever
people make sure of that
ive never had a valentines day where i felt truely loved.
ive never beent he one who someone had a crush on.
im always the best friend
or the best they think they can get
im sick of being the one looked past
the one whos there for when your desperate
the one that will never be good enough as she is

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