i am worthless
i am useless
i am talentless
i am ugly
i am fat
i do not deserve anythign i have
i drag others down to my hell
you're better off without me
i am a loser

when i said i've been self depreciating lately, you have no idea to what extent
i feel like the only reason im still going is because i couldnt put themthrough losing me, after everything they've been through.

cheerfullness is not my forte, nor is anything else
my whole existance is pointless. why the fuck do i even try anymore!?